Living ADHD 2

I learned to control my outward movement and noise out of self-preservation. No one likes to be in trouble all the time. Plus start adding the guilt thing, by parents, teachers, grandparents, aunts, uncles neighbors anyone who could make you feel guilty about the fact that you were not doing, learning or acting like you should. Like other kids did. Pretty soon you work out a way to keep all of these people happy and still pursue your own interest.
I think this is a good time to mention that I was raised Catholic, went to Catholic school, My mom was the school Secretary, my dad was in the Knights of Columbus. I only mention this cause I think alot of the guilt thing is imposed on the psyche by the Catholic thing. the Catholic thing is a whole other blog and I will try to get to it one day.
Once I learned to control my outward movement and noise making, I found the most wonderful universe inside my own mind. I remember being in class and mentally being hundreds of other places. I could go fishing, sailing, swimming , fly with a bird that went past the window, feel the wind on my face as I soared along beside, wings outstretch, looking down at the rest of the world and yes, still hear Sister Laurtencia ask me to come to the board and write the answer. And have the correct answer!. Thank you God, for auto-pilot.